Britney Spears apologizes to fans for ‘pretending’ to be ok in her conservatorship

In her very first public declaration considering that her courtroom testament, the vocalist informed her 30.6 million Instagram fans on Thursday that her social networks personality had actually provided the incorrect impression which she was sorry for “pretending like I’ve been OK the past two years.”

Attending To the Los Angeles court by phone, she explained the conservatorship as “abusive.” Relatively providing weight to the theories of the #FreeBritney motion in a 25-minute speech, she stated she felt she had actually been required to carry out, was provided no personal privacy, and was made to utilize contraception, take medication and go to treatment sessions versus her will.

Spears has actually undergone a court-ordered conservatorship considering that 2008, following a series of individual problems that played out openly.

Publishing on Instagram, the “Baby One More Time” hitmaker opened about her remorse that “pride” avoided her from exposing she was “going through hell.”

“I just want to tell you guys a little secret,” she composed. “I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for!!!!”

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The 39-year-old star continued: “That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how shitty a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was ok. I’m bringing this to people’s attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL.”

Nevertheless, Spears stated, pretending to be great on social networks has “actually helped.”

“If you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!! I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years … I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture their Instagram in a fun light!!!! Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped.”

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“I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales!!!!!”

Throughout her court look, Spears stated other individuals have actually managed and exploited her throughout her life which “I want and deserve changes going forward.”

In action to her remarks, Vivian Thoreen, a lawyer for Jamie Spears informed CNN, “Mr. Spears loves his daughter and misses her very much.”

An additional court hearing is set for July 14.

Jobber Wiki author Frank Long contributed to this report.